lack of sleep April 21, 2011

sleep is an elusive concept to me. i want it, but i cant have it. like a child, i want it all that more. lately its been pretty bad. i’ve been falling asleep on my commute to and from work… at work… while talking to people… while going to the dang bathroom. its nuts. and it not even the “good kind” of lack of sleep. the good kind is when you have insomnia. thats awesome for weightloss by the way. just saying. its the kind that leaves me pissed off.

why cant i sleep? hmm well, let me tell you!

1. ranger danger. while i love him to pieces… hes a baby. the biggest crybaby you have ever met. when he wants something, he wants it right then and there. if you do not give into him, he will throw giant fits and cry. he will keep crying until you give in. if you choose to be strong and not cave into his sad cries, he gets angry. when hes angry he growls and bites. Ranger danger does not like to sleep in his crate. when hes feeling needy, he will cry and howl in his crate. this wakes me up several times a night. i have to be really stern with him and usually it works. hes huff at me, but will go back to sleep for a little while. his daddy is NOT consistant with him (EVER) so Ranger thinks its ok to keep on at things until someone gives in. on other nights like last night, he is in a mood and will not care if he gets a spanking or not. he will have his way or make everyone suffer. about the 5th time i’ve yelled at him to go to bed (its about 4:30 am at this point) the other puppies decide that they are going to join in. so now all 3 are begging to be let out. i have to get some sleep bc i have to work in the morning, so i, like a baby, give in and let them out. this is a mistake. schautze has to sleep right next to our faces or necks. she HAS to be touching you. shooter HAS to sleep in between the boy and i and HAS to be sleeping up against someone. Ranger HAS to sleep on or in between my legs or the boy’s. he HAS to. THEY HAVE TO. around 5am i get tired of schautze and the boy snoring in my ear. so i push her off to the side and push the boy to stop him as well. she has hurt feelings and sleeps under the bed now. shooter is running in his sleep, thus clawing me in the process. i push him, he comes back. while pushing him Ranger is tangled in the sheets on my legs. basically i get pushed off a king size bed by two 20 lbs puppies. what the crap.

2. the boy. oh my god, the boy. he snores. he wants to sleep right next to me while snoring. he wants to sleep with his arms around me. he wants to sleep holding my hand. all of that is fine, but the snoring part. he wants to do all that while snoring in my face.  ANNNNNNNND hes a selfish sleeper! when hes cold, he takes all the blankets. no idea why, but he needs them, so he takes ALL of them. when hes hot, he throws everything off and then sleeps on top of the blankets… my side included. what the crap. he wants to sleep in the middle of the bed! he claims that he wants to be closer to me. bull. he wants all the room. thats why i barely have room to move when the dogs are pushing me off the bed.

i hate life.

hahhaah not realy. im just cranky

it has been a while December 21, 2010

so its been a few weeks since i last signed in. not a lot to say i guess. with the holidays coming up, im hoping that i’ll have more to talk about. for now its been pretty boring. i go to work, come home, watch tv, go to bed. on the weekends i clean house and run errands. super boring. im hoping that things will open up and i’ll have more fun and do more things.

the puppies… ranger will be a YEAR old in 2 months. we are super happy about that. hes still the baby. the other two will be TWO YEARS old in may. holy cow… i cant believe that its only been 2 years. it feels like we’ve had them forever. i guess we were so consumed with them, it felt longer. we are splitting the dogs up this year. the boys are coming with me and schautze will go with the boy. the boys are super dependent while schautze couldnt care less if anyone was around. the boy’s family wanted to see the puppies, but they went there last year. this year its my turn.

i also declared to the boy and everyone that this will be the last time i drive to el paso for the holiday. i am demanding that my folks finally move closer or they get no one. meaning that i will have to make my siblings come to me as well. el paso is just so far away and boring. i cant take it anymore. and we HAVE to drive bc of the puppies. i am dreading the drive.

hmm what else? i dont know 😦

hahahha

71 days of fitness October 21, 2010

250 sit ups

calories burned… unknown 😦

hopefully i’ll be sore tomm. i want to be sore ALL the time. i feel that when im sore, i worked out well. its not true, i know, but its how i feel. cardio and abs are going to be things that i work into the regular routine now. well that and only eating 5,000 calories a day vs the 8,000 i consume normally. fatty fatty two by four, i know 😦

the boy and i are terrible. like really terrible. we wanted to see who the puppies loved more. so what did we do? i pretended to beat the boy up and see who would defend him and then he would do the same. who loves who?

shooter loves the boy

ranger loves me

schautze loves us both.

she would be so upset with the both of us. its really neat to see. perhaps i’ll try to video it and post it on here

 

74 days of fitness October 18, 2010

walked 2 miles

1 hour of gym workout

330 calories burned

worked out with holly again. it was fun. we walked and talked about this and that. i cut my finger on the mirror in the gym.

the worst puppy ever October 12, 2010

i realized a few days ago that ranger is the worst puppy ever. hes so freaking cute and smart… thats why we let him get away with so much. take away the cuteness and all you have is a VERY NAUGHTY PUPPY. he does not listen to anything. he is constantly going to places he shouldnt be. he ran away from the bot the other night. its terrible. i have decided that i am going to shave him clean and then i wont be distracted by the cuteness. once i lay down the law, i will have 3 semi good babies.

plus i think its really funny

its horrible, i know

shut up

this is the little angel now… laying down in CLEAN FOLDED laundry

82 days of fitness October 10, 2010

walked 3 miled

320 calories burned

sigh, ACL is over and i wont feel like death anymore. it was a really fun experience. i know thats weird to say, but once the death feeling washes away… i remember how fun it was. i will upload everything tomm.

tonight we came home and ate dinner while watching my fair wedding with the boy. hahaha hes so great about things like that. we watch, we talk about this and that… its fun. he enjoys it. he really does. he just puts up a “im a boy, i dont watch this” act for a min. then he watches and comments.

we were having fun when a puppy climbed in my lap. schautze… oh schautze, what am i going to do with you? she smelled terrible. i didnt know why. i pushed her off and saw something… poop! she pooped, stepped in it, and then left trails of it on my leg. i ran away crying “I HAVE POOP ON ME”

oh schautze…

85 days of fitness October 7, 2010

half an hour of gym work out

walked 1 mile

200 calories burned

sadly no i did not go to yoga today. i overloaded myself on coffee. when i do that and go to bikrim, i puke. i just went to holly’s and walked with her and worked out in the gym. it was nice. the weather was great for walking. i showed her other parts of the cake topper. she said she liked it, so im glad. i did warn her though… if i mess it up, i will destroy it and start over. i dont like having my mistakes staring back at me.

came home and the neighbor was out. she likes to talk. a lot. and thats fine and all, but sometimes i just want to go inside. today she came inside with me. she has a pitbull and thinks that she knows everything about dogs. she may know everything about her dog, but not mine. it really irritates me when people try to tell me how to treat my dogs. here’s the thing…

1. its not your dog. mind your business. if they are snarling at you, yes you should say something or push them away. if not, mind your business. i got it.

2. you have ONE dog. i have three. no matter what you say, its not going to work. pack mentality trumps everything. one on one, they are beautifully behaved pups. together, they are nutty. we are still working on it.

3. you dont know everything. you really dont. so shut up. i didnt ask you. (see #1)

she told us to let them bark at her and that they will calm down. no they will not. they will not calm down until we make them feel comfortable. they will see you as a threat and will verbalize it. she insisted. this went on for about 10 mins. my ears couldnt take it. so the boy and i had to hold them and calm them down. even then, they would still huff and growl. ranger was the brave one and went up to her to see what she was about. the other two never came to it. it was annoying. REALLY annoying.

sigh, now im irritated…

98 days of fitness September 24, 2010

jogged 1 mile

burned 120 calories

i cant do more today 😦 i am fat loser. my legs are still sore from yesterday, so i decided to do my fitness thing as fast as possible. how did i do that? i jogged. i would have ran, but im fat, so i dont really do running… tomm though i am going paddle boarding. well… thats a lie. im going to kayak with my puppies and watch people paddle board. im going to try to take a camera and take video of the babies swimming. you guys are going to die when you see it. so freaking cute. and yes i do realize that i sound like a crazy person. you like it though.

100 days September 22, 2010

so… there is 100 days left in 2010. holy geez! 100 days. can you say that you made the most of this year?

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im going to say no. the biggest things ive done this year, so far, is convince the boy we needed another dog; ranger. that freaking puppy is the love of my life. he could care less about me, but i love him. i LOVE him. hes so freaking cute and smart. it tears me up inside how amazing he is. the other two puppies are new puppies now. they are smarter, more playful… needier, but still… adding a new person to our little family was the best thing this year. (and my LIFE)

i went back to the motherland this year too. that was kind of amazing. i would go live there is the chance came. would i leave the boy to go? yes. he knows too. he would come join me eventually, but yes i would go without him. he doesnt want to go anyway. he wants to go to japan and to taiwan, but not korea. so dont be all “awww thats so mean!” it would be mean if i made him go.

sigh… i just love it there. its amazing. i rode atvs on the beach. i went into a submarine. i had a fishy pedicure. AMAZING!

i broke my foot twice this year… hahahaha i love it! the first time, my toe was smashed into pieces. literally. the whole toe was broken and part of my foot

the second time was in korea (awesome right?)

broke two toes and cracked the side of my foot

the same foot… so i have one good foot left and two toes

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there are 100 days left! make the most of it! make it worth memories…

things left to do this year…

~ ACL for the first time!

~ race for the cure

~ real holidays with the boy and the puppies

hmm… i think i need to add more to the list hahaha

reaction August 20, 2010

so after the older two got tired of waiting for ranger to come back, they went their separate ways. shooter, being clingy, stuck by my side. he would just lay there and not do anything. schautze took all of ranger’s toys and hid them under the guest bed and she laid under there with them. both did NOTHING. it was the most terrible thing ever. these dogs were just so… heartbroken. they couldnt find him, so they waited for him. he didnt show up, so they were sad.

😦

we were able to bring ranger home… his reaction? he HATES me. he kept giving me the stink eye. he wouldnt sit with me. he wouldnt let me hold him. he wouldnt be nice to me.  he was all about the boy though. it hurt me 😦 the boy, of course, loved it.  the puppies were all super happy to be reunited. we couldnt let them play together. ranger had to lay down and be calm. schautze got out ranger’s tennis ball from under the bed and brought it to him. she rolled it over to him with her nose.

CUTEST THING EVER

its hard to keep ranger still, but he seems to be himself. im so happy about that.