conversation with the boy June 2, 2011

me:  well?

the boy:  I look so young

 me:  hahahha youre stupid

 the boy:  its all baby face now

 me:  hahaha whatever

 the boy:  you don’t believe me???

 me:  i do… at least its better than before

 the boy:  …

 me:  hahaha then why did you shave it

 the boy:  to make you like me!

 me:  yeah… about that

 the boy:  …………………

 me:  what… what!

 the boy:  you are messed up

 me:  what? how? HOW!

 the boy:  ummm how you talk about my affections for you!

 me:  there was no affection there! that was bribery!

 the boy:  ummm bribery works, this was more of an attempt of gaining your love!

 me:  i dont think you know what youre saying, youre all in a huff. calm it down woman!

 the boy:  You calm it down!

 me:  good one

Meat Coma and other Penis Jokes April 25, 2011

so Easter came and went. it was nice. the boy and i went to shiner’s sister’s place to have a family meal. the boy made brisket, two ways. he was very proud. even more so bc it was so well received. everyone proclaimed to be in a meat coma. i always thought that was so funny… and gross. well meat sweats are grosser than meat coma. it was a really nice lunch. we all sat around and watched the boy play with shiner’s niece. shiner and i were joking around with shiner’s sister’s husband. he really enjoyed the boy’s brisket. and thats where the jokes came into play

“i dont think i can stuff any more meat in me”– the husband

“youre really great at taking all that meat in”– me

“it just feels so good in my mouth”– the husband

“you like all that meat juice?”– me

“i love it, it tastes so good”– the husband

“HAHAHHA you love the boy’s meat juice in your mouth? AWESOME!”– me

hahahah shiner then proceeds to ask me “as the people in your office ask… whats the matter with you?” hahahhaa i dont know why, but i enjoy laughing at my own jokes. i think im hilarious. when people make jokes and dance around the subject, i like to say it flat out and ruin the joke. for instance, in this case, most people would keep going w the “meat” joke. i find it funny to say “hahhaa its funny bc we’re talking about meat, but really we’re talking about penises” hahahah it ruins the joke, but i (right now am laughing).

the boy likes to think he’s funny too. he makes jokes and then i’ll use it against him. like the popular “you know how i know youre gay?” he’ll use that on me when i have girl moments or am sappy. in turn, i’ll say the same thing and say “you know how i know? bc you like having sex with men” hahhahahaha see thats not funny, but im dying. thats terrible right? to think yourself as being hilarious? even if it is, i will still/always think of myself that way.

the boy pretends he doesnt think i’m hilarious, but i know he does think i am. he and i will have laughing fits at least once a week. i love laughing fits. where you laugh so hard, you cant breathe or it hurts so good? i’ll say something to him and he’ll laugh and follow it with “whats the matter with you” NOTHING! YOU LOVE IT! its usually pretty terrible things that i’ll say… like he and i had a jail fight talk. he and i were talking once about how i was sick of him and was going to throw him off a bridge/cliff/somewhere really high. he said that i would go to jail with scratches all over me. and i asked “why? bc you went out like a little B****?” hahahhaha he said “NO! you heard me wrong! wait… like a little B****? hahahha what is the matter with you?” hahhaha i dont know whats the matter with me.

aye… my face hurts. i was laughing the whole time i was writing this. sigh…

lack of sleep April 21, 2011

sleep is an elusive concept to me. i want it, but i cant have it. like a child, i want it all that more. lately its been pretty bad. i’ve been falling asleep on my commute to and from work… at work… while talking to people… while going to the dang bathroom. its nuts. and it not even the “good kind” of lack of sleep. the good kind is when you have insomnia. thats awesome for weightloss by the way. just saying. its the kind that leaves me pissed off.

why cant i sleep? hmm well, let me tell you!

1. ranger danger. while i love him to pieces… hes a baby. the biggest crybaby you have ever met. when he wants something, he wants it right then and there. if you do not give into him, he will throw giant fits and cry. he will keep crying until you give in. if you choose to be strong and not cave into his sad cries, he gets angry. when hes angry he growls and bites. Ranger danger does not like to sleep in his crate. when hes feeling needy, he will cry and howl in his crate. this wakes me up several times a night. i have to be really stern with him and usually it works. hes huff at me, but will go back to sleep for a little while. his daddy is NOT consistant with him (EVER) so Ranger thinks its ok to keep on at things until someone gives in. on other nights like last night, he is in a mood and will not care if he gets a spanking or not. he will have his way or make everyone suffer. about the 5th time i’ve yelled at him to go to bed (its about 4:30 am at this point) the other puppies decide that they are going to join in. so now all 3 are begging to be let out. i have to get some sleep bc i have to work in the morning, so i, like a baby, give in and let them out. this is a mistake. schautze has to sleep right next to our faces or necks. she HAS to be touching you. shooter HAS to sleep in between the boy and i and HAS to be sleeping up against someone. Ranger HAS to sleep on or in between my legs or the boy’s. he HAS to. THEY HAVE TO. around 5am i get tired of schautze and the boy snoring in my ear. so i push her off to the side and push the boy to stop him as well. she has hurt feelings and sleeps under the bed now. shooter is running in his sleep, thus clawing me in the process. i push him, he comes back. while pushing him Ranger is tangled in the sheets on my legs. basically i get pushed off a king size bed by two 20 lbs puppies. what the crap.

2. the boy. oh my god, the boy. he snores. he wants to sleep right next to me while snoring. he wants to sleep with his arms around me. he wants to sleep holding my hand. all of that is fine, but the snoring part. he wants to do all that while snoring in my face.  ANNNNNNNND hes a selfish sleeper! when hes cold, he takes all the blankets. no idea why, but he needs them, so he takes ALL of them. when hes hot, he throws everything off and then sleeps on top of the blankets… my side included. what the crap. he wants to sleep in the middle of the bed! he claims that he wants to be closer to me. bull. he wants all the room. thats why i barely have room to move when the dogs are pushing me off the bed.

i hate life.

hahhaah not realy. im just cranky

coffee? April 19, 2011

Hello old friend, I missed you. Can we pick up where we left off? Probably not. Our vibes are all out of sync. Do you want to try to force this friendship? I don’t like forced friendships. So then what shall we do? Pretend and jump right in? How about just a toe?

Sip some coffee…

Things are ok. I just got back from a wedding. You remember Holly? Yeah, she got married this past weekend. It was awesome! She was super happy about everything, so all the work/stress was worth it. Come again? Oh. Well you know how weddings go. People want certain things and they want it to match the picture in their heads. That kind of stress… hahah yeah she was nutty, but that’s ok. She calmed down and it was wonderful. I was super worried that she was going to hate it. I love pressure like that, but it had me a little worried.  

Sip some coffee…

Me? Hahah no, I’m not getting married. Oh no, we’re still together, we’re just not getting married. He has to stop making me crazy first. Hahaha he does! He’s a nut case. He will never own up to it, but he is. I have to record one of our fights one day and play it for you. He’s crazy! I give him all this space to do whatever he wants. I want him to have bro time with his boyfriends. I really do. He’s happy hanging out with buddies; I’m happy with my peace and quiet. I like my space. He doesn’t like me liking space. He thinks I’ll run away. Probably because I keep telling him that hahaha. Its not mean! I kid, for the most part. He just likes to do things with me. He wants to share things that he enjoys with me. Hahhaha I just don’t like the things he does. I guess I could find it sweet vs annoying. I wont… its funnier if I don’t.

Speaking of funny… did I tell you that the boys and Jennifer went and did trapeze? Isn’t that awesome? Oh, I couldn’t because I broke my foot. Hahaha yeah I broke it again. Not as awesome as the other two times sadly… anyway. Yeah they went and did that. It looked super fun. I really want to go as soon as my foot heals. What? Well it was two hours long. The first 30 mins they just teach you what to do while youre up there and then… youre going solo! Its awesome! They did flips and a reach thing. You know where they reach out to other people and swing? Yeah! They did that! Awesome right?

OH!!! I went and saw the zac brown band! It was amazing! The best concert I’ve been to, ever. Sigh, I just love them so much. I always get super emotional hearing songs that I love, live. That guy has the best voice. Sigh…

Gulping the last bit of coffee…

Yeah… I should probably go too. We should do this again. Yeah, more often.  Ok, you take care. Bye

it has been a while December 21, 2010

so its been a few weeks since i last signed in. not a lot to say i guess. with the holidays coming up, im hoping that i’ll have more to talk about. for now its been pretty boring. i go to work, come home, watch tv, go to bed. on the weekends i clean house and run errands. super boring. im hoping that things will open up and i’ll have more fun and do more things.

the puppies… ranger will be a YEAR old in 2 months. we are super happy about that. hes still the baby. the other two will be TWO YEARS old in may. holy cow… i cant believe that its only been 2 years. it feels like we’ve had them forever. i guess we were so consumed with them, it felt longer. we are splitting the dogs up this year. the boys are coming with me and schautze will go with the boy. the boys are super dependent while schautze couldnt care less if anyone was around. the boy’s family wanted to see the puppies, but they went there last year. this year its my turn.

i also declared to the boy and everyone that this will be the last time i drive to el paso for the holiday. i am demanding that my folks finally move closer or they get no one. meaning that i will have to make my siblings come to me as well. el paso is just so far away and boring. i cant take it anymore. and we HAVE to drive bc of the puppies. i am dreading the drive.

hmm what else? i dont know 😦

hahahha

40 days of fitness November 21, 2010

walked 1 mile

100 calories burned

i wished that i did more, but i am worn out. woke up gross still. i ran errands with the boy and came home to cook meatloaf. it was meatloaf day here. the boy has been looking forward to this for a while. it got pushed the first time bc i was sick. it got pushed again bc of the whole shooter thing. so i couldnt push it more, sick or not. i dont know how much more disappointment he could take. this is a process. a 4 hour process. AND IT DIDNT EVEN TASTE GOOD! the sick thing is throwing my taste off. 😦 the boy and jennifer said they liked it, but i think they are being nice. ive seen them eat things they thought tasted good. they were being polite. im ok with that. i feel bad that i made them eat it.

today was a good day November 13, 2010

the other day i was annoyed bc i was away from the comp for a while. i was not able to update like i wanted to. i had to do that from the phone. i hate doing that from the phone… but the day has past and now today is here. today was a good day.

today i went to sweet berry farm with the boy. SO fun! its such a cute place to visit. i always wanted to go there to pick strawberries and blackberries, but we never found the right time to go. obviously those berries are out of season now, so why did we go? the hay field maze! its giant and weird and oh so fun!

this last pic is showing the card that was given to us at the maze. basically we had to go around the maze and find different landmarks. if you find all of them you get a free drink. its cute and so fun! the record is 19 mins. how that guy did that in 19 mins is beyond me. we were in there for about an hour hahaha.

then we came home and ate some burgers. i wanted to get some more bling. so the boy took me to michaels and we got more! yay!!! this is the itouch case

isnt it pretty???

fun day right? i think so

68 days of fitness October 24, 2010

walked a mile

100 calories burned

today was been a long day. the boy and i didnt go to sleep until 4am and then had to wake up at 730am to go have breakfast with friends. the boy went to a really neat haunted house. it was interactive (meaning they wanted you to do stuff too) and apparently super fun. i cannot go to haunted houses. i have adverse reactions to people touching me or almost touching me… or even breathing on me. so i passed… im glad the boy went. he enjoys things like this. it was 45 mins long. they had to run to different stations… away from zombies. he had blood splattered on him, people grabbing on him, he crawled on the floor… good times for him. it all went to a good cause too (susan koman foundation)

im feeling weird these days. im having manic episodes. its not as bad as it sounds. (most people have manic episodes, its how you deal with it that matters) i think its that im stressing and its being expressed in my wild mood swings. i need to find a new routine… new obsession… hmmm

69 days of fitness October 23, 2010

walked a mile

100 sit ups

120 calories burned

today wasnt the best day for fitness. why? bc i ate way too much and did way too little. tonight was a halloween themed bunco night. the boy and jennifer came with me. it was so fun! the boy and i were the only ones who dressed up. 😦 i was a bear and he was my mauled victim. it was pretty rad. hes very happy bc he won. jennifer was sad bc she did not.

isnt it neat?

i made black night cupcakes for the bunco party

70 days of fitness October 22, 2010

150 sit ups

EPIC FAIL

i dont know why i couldnt find the time today. i just couldnt. i feel really bad. well not really. i just got back from the longest walk ever… in heels. the boy and i went to see the gorillaz tonight. hes on cloud 9 right now. im not a fan, but i will say, they put on an epic show. it was fun to watch. they had a big band, strings, guest singers, and they showed their music videos on a giant screen above them. it was awesome!

back to fitness… i do see results today. i am SO happy about that. i just need to lose 20 lbs more and i will be super happy. hopefully my face fat will go first.